Nostalgia

Life is full of shoulda, coulda, woulda moments.   The precious few moments that we share on this planet are filled with regrets.  I don't see this as such a bad thing.  For one thing, I have many things in my life that I do not regret, and without that regret I would have nothing to compare to my high points.... but lately I've been feeling like my high points could be so much higher if I "coulda, shoulda, woulda" done something different with my time. 

This reality forces my hand constantly.  I feel the weight in what I do, I don't want one more moment wasted on regret.  Even the act of regretting, the time spent on it, is too much for me to spare.  I'm 36 years old.  I have all of my regrets to date well cataloged and I have done my lamenting for them.  I have decided, as of this moment, to have less regret, to be more frugal with my train of thought, to be more of what I intend to be. 

My thoughts are with you guys, know I haven't been by much lately to Gaia.... but my mind has taken a detour.... it happens.

My song for the day:

Phil Collins
All of my life

All of my life, Ive been searching
For the words to say how I feel.
Id spend my time thinking too much
And leave too little to say what I mean
Ive tried to understand the best I can
All of my life.

All of my life, Ive been saying sorry
For the things I know I should have done
All the things I could have said come back to me
Sometimes I wish that it had just begun
Seems Im always that little too late
All of my life

Set em up, Ill take a drink with you
Pull up a chair, I think Ill stay
Set em up, cos Im going nowhere
Theres too much I need to remember, too much I need to say

All of my life, Ive been looking
But its hard to find the way
Reaching past the goal in front of me
While whats important just slips away
It doesnt come back but Ill be looking
All of my life

Set em up...

All of my life, there have been regrets
That I didnt do all I could
Making records upstairs, while he watched tv
I didnt spend the time I should
Its a memory I will live with
All of my life.